Question
I understand that everything is impermanent and I try to develop equanimity in order to deepen the understanding that we can not control everything. I also understand that the wish to control and to master is selfish and it is desirable to let it go. Departing from this reflection I have a question. If we can not identify a stable self (non-self) then I shouldn't try to master myself? Although mindfulness rarely focuses on letting go, Buddhism teaches to be aware of feelings, mindsets etc. in order to gradually transform them. My question is, if this is actually not a form of mastering myself, do I understand mindfulness wrongly or is this a contradiction with which we have to deal with in our practice? Dealing with it by, for example, accepting that we will not fully understand ourselves as we change constantly and will not fully control ourselves but try to explore ourselves as good as possible in order to allow ourselves transformation.